Introductions

So I just realized I never fully introduced myself to anyone, so here's my long awaited Introduction. My first name is Matthew, I know boring right? But I go by Mj online. Feel free to call me either one thou, as they are both my name lol. Id consider myself a rather boring person to be honest, I don't have many hobbies, don't do many things at all actually, but that's all my opinion. 

Anyway, right now im in school for welding. Tbh though I'm thinking about dropping out and maybe going into medicine or some sort of research bassed science. 

I play an instrument in my school band and I also somewhat play the guitar. I'm wanting to learn to play the drums and maybe start my own band one day. 

Some of my dreams for the future, which are not realistic at all, are to travel through every continent and country (within reason) and complete hiking trails and mountain climbs and scuba dives along the way. My dream job as of right now would be an ED doc who also flies out in helicopters with like search and rescue and things like that. I have alot of hobbies which I'd eventually like to do like photography with a real camera and I want to make clothing and learn to draw and paint and just a bunch of stuff. I want to buy a bike and like bike everywhere. I also want a dual sports motorcycle. I want to join a swim team eventually and maybe a running group. I want to collect dolls, action figures, figures in general, plushies, books, manga, DVDs, CDs, games, old tech. As of right now I have a bit over 100 dvds which I love all of and I only have four cds. I have a portable DVD player my friend got me and a radio and a Nintendo switch. As of right now I'm not very fashionable but when I get to earning money I really want to broaden my wardrobe and start dressing all sorts of ways. 

More about me is that I'm bisexual and unfortunately single that being said thou I'm not necessarily looking for a partner I don't really think anyone should go out searching for one I think love and relationships take a lot more than that. I used to be a really good sport player and I say sport because I did like EVERYTHING I really miss it sometimes but I just can't do it anymore. 

Anyway my favorite color is probably blue or red. I have so many favorite tv shows and movies and animes so I won't list them but know if you mention something I know I will be talking about it with you for a while. My favorite food is curry specifically Japanese beef curry, and shrimp of all variety, and also potatoes I love them. My favorite chips are lays original and my favorite candy is coffee candy or root beer candy, which I can like never find. My favorite sweet is probably lemon cake and my favorite drink is lemonade. 

More personal stuff you can skip if you want 

I do have many mental health problems and health problems in general some which I probably have undiagnosed right now because I just simply don't go to the doctor. Also I am an involuntary age regressor if you don't know what that is it is where I basically regress into sort of a child like mindset and thinking process it is NEVER NEVER sexual I know people get it confused but it is completely different from those fetishes it is a recognized coping mechanism by many therapists and some even recommend it. 

I'm a recovering alcoholic and addict and I think its actually almost like a month and a half now that I've been completely sober from everything. Most days it's ok but there are those few were it's really fucking hard especially with how stressed I am. 

I am like heavily suicidal but more like passive suicidal I'm not really gonna try to kill myself but I'm not gonna try and save myself either unless I have like a really fucking bad day and I have access to shit which I don't unless I actively go out and buy shit. 

Anyway yea that's about all I can think of to say if you got any questions for me I can answer fr