Kuro and Mimi

My mother just told me she'll be visiting the country where my cat Kuro died and where I lost my other cat, Mimi. Before I left I was supposed to leave a bowl of tuna out for Mimi and I was supposed to kiss him goodbye and I couldn't do that.

I don't know how to feel. I want to go with her but it's a trip I can't afford at this time and I don't like taking their money. I wish I could hold them just one last time. I wish I had the chance to say goodbye. I wish I got to see them in my dreams again. And I because I can never do any of these things, I wished so bad that I could visit them again.

But I can't.

I'm sorry, Kuro, Mimi. I love you.