Lamby woke up today 07.07.26

I had classes yesterday, it was nice

The birds are chirping outside my window

half of my songs got on my playlist so that was nice 

Lamby feels better now. I am happy to do things and don't want to be horrible 

My laundry is done, But i didn't hang it up to dry at all i asked my parents 'while i am at class can you please go to the laundromat to dry my clothes for me'

and they were like ok

and when i came back it seems they went on a little date together because i saw they bought some stuff from a cafe 

i am going to walk next sunday to a store that is my plan 

my life is blessed i hope i dont get hit by a car or truck

i will keep on being whatever i want to be 

I write things on paper yesterday, mainly notes, i have stuff to do on there, and stuff to write on my calendar 

I often feel like im living wrongly, that there's something wrong with me, and to fix the problem i should get rid of myself,

and like, sure i can improve, but there will always be wrong things 

just go on, keep going , fix what you can and do what you can and that's enough 

i was a sensitive child who needed a lot of care

and i still kind of am just that i can care for myself now, for the most part

I want to paint the wall, paint cartoon characters on it,

and i wanna work on my art and my studies and i wanna clean up my room and i wanna bake and cook and i wanna go out and do things 

and in a day, i only really make use of 12 hours 

i have realised my energy doesn't span across what I wanna do

i know that , its not really understood ,but it's tried, there's effort

as if tolerating my presence is a gift, but okay, I'll take it, it's fine

there are better things to do anyway

ogh shit the next art market im going to is in less than a month

i am soooooo gonna need to speedrun this

for new things I'm planning on making an envelope/letter writing set, and using a rolling cart to make a little 'trinket corner' where people can trade little things 

I'll probably also put some of my b-grade items there

i live okay, there are people out there doin g it worse, you're gonna be okay, you're gonna be okay