late introduction/about me

so I'm realizing I never did a proper introduction blog as my pinned blog is rlly vauge and my profile is shit (I'll work on it after this blog)

so uhh, my name is David, I'm 16+a dude, I'm half Mexican and Salvadorian, my birthday is in March, I'm abt 5,8 without the hair, i have a big afro, and also have 2 sisters and one brother

to foreword, I'm sorry if I decline your friend request or unfriend you after a week or something stupid like that, I promise its not you its me. Something happened and tbh I don't think I'll ever get over it, so I don't think I can make anymore friends, also I'm not really ok in the head so I tend to overthink and push everyone away

I mainly blog about my own problems and whatnot, my stance on things, or stuff I like, but mostly the first one, ALSO if I make any weirder than usual blogs at times I'm sorry in advance I get really emotional when I'm sleep deprived and don't think properly

I started out as a loser, then devolved into a shut in, and now I'm something more akin to dog than human (NO IM NOT A FURRY no hate tho). I'm not easy to talk to and not really a likable person either

i don't talk to my family besides my grandma and don't talk out loud at all when I'm inside the house

I spend most of my time inside playing games on Xbox or watching anime/reading manga and don't go out very much because its fucking hot outside, I want to get into drawing or any other cool hobbies but I'm too scared to.

I usually hate everything and everyone and want to die but sometimes i'm just happy for no reason, I'm not really sure why but I think its because I've gone mad, like clinically insane, I can act sane to about the loser level of normal but its mostly internal screaming all the time

if you know me irl tho then assume im just larping bc I'll just tell you I'm fine

2 days clean