Living with my mom is getting difficult

So this is the first time I'm going to be posting this on my profile but I am a trans man and I've been on T for about 2 months now.

And ever since I told my mom I was starting T she has been begging and crying, telling me to stop T. 

She has tried scaring me with all these "what if's" like: What if you can't get a new job? What if you loose your Medicaid? What if you turn obese and you can't get out of bed? What if you turn into a "rage monster"?

She keeps saying things about herself and how she feels and I feel like she hasn't stopped to think about how I feel. If something is making me happy shouldn't you just let it be?

While my big sister came down to our house to spend a few weeks there my mom waited until it was just me and her to tell me that it makes her sad whenever she sees me, which made me pretty sad.

And two nights ago she started crying saying how I've "changed" and that I've been mean to her all the time lately. She said that I'm a "imposter *deadname*" and she doesn't want me to have a deeper voice. And she said "I am losing you, I am losing another one of my kids".

Once we got inside the house she started yelling saying how it's my fault that I'm losing my hair and getting facial hair which 1. I haven't noticed a change in my hairline or anything like that, and 2. facial hair is one of the things I want from T omg. She said you don't wanna be a boy, you don't even like boys? I do like guys, I'm bi. 

Oh and a few months before all of this I remember she came into my room and told me I was breaking her heart and she hit herself in the head really hard, to the point you could hear her knuckle hitting her head.  

 And she keeps saying "I liked you fine before, I liked you the way you were before."

She is only thinking about herself and how she feels. She keeps saying how I'M not thinking about how she's feeling about all of this but I DO. Even at the start I knew that she could have a hard time adjusting/ grieve her daughter, and I was there for her if she had any questions. I even suggested we could talk with my therapist together but she refused. 

I told her the other night is all I'm asking is to respect what I'm doing with my own life and body and she said she won't and she's not going to say anything else. 

Like I'm not even asking her to use a new name or new pronouns I just want her to respect me. She doesn't have to be okay with it, just stop trying to stop me from doing something with my own life. It's not her life or her body it's mine. 

So since all of this has been happening I've been trying to work on trying to move out of my moms house. I'm just scared because I think it's gonna be a little harder since I'm still working on my drivers license and I'm also disabled so there might be issues with that. 

Sorry for the long rant lol I needed to let that all out.