Love and passion (UGHH BULLSHIT TOO)

i catch myself zoning out a lot thinking about random stuff, and one thing i keep thinking about is a really close friend of mine.

honestly, i don't even understand myself anymore. i BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHLHASDJHAIFIWAUFAcan't tell if i like him just as a friend, or if it's something more than that. maybe both? i really need to learn how to control myself sometimes lol.

there are moments where he catches me staring at him with the most obvious lovestruck face ever >///SDAKGHSIUDHFIAUHDIUAH< and i immediately look away like nothing happened lmao.

it's kinda weird too because i don't really get along with his family at all, and i don't even know what it is about him exactly, but every single time i see him or spend time with him, my heart just feels... FUCKING ANGRIER

but somehow, when i'm around him, everything feels LOUDER

and even if he ALWAYS show it in obvious ways, i know he DONT GIVE A SHIT about me. in his own little way, he does.

idk...SAKDUYASI8DUY

all i know is that i HATE him a lot. ;_;

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