love is making me so damn sad.

no matter what i do, how much time passes, how little we talk, i can’t stop loving the same person and it makes me sad as shit. 

i come home from school and i cry alone in my bed because i don’t know what else to do. sometimes i’m absolutely sure he feels it too, sometimes i’m absolutely sure he doesn’t. the not knowing has been driving me crazy for YEARS and i fear i can no longer go like this

i feel helpless because there’s nothing i can do

i already posted about this but i feel like i can’t stress it enough. i create art, i talk to my friends, i journal, i try and forget it but i can’t. 

“it’s like somebody put a weight on my chest”- olivia rodrigo