my best friend is into my crush.

i've liked this guy for about a month now, and he's been showing a lot of interest in me for the past couple weeks, to the point where i am basically entirely certain that he likes me back. my friends have been very supportive of this, but my one friend, all of a sudden, is reeeeallyyyyy supportive, making it seem like this is something she is a bit TOO invested in.

yesterday, i was playing a card game with him, her, and one other friend, when i noticed that she was basically only interacting with him and laughing extra hard at everything that he was saying. every time i looked at her, she was looking at him, and basically the whole day she was just paying less attention to everyone else and much more attention to him. she made a point to sit next to him when we went to the dining hall, being in between me and him, and overall she's just acting really weird around him all of a sudden.

so okok i'm overthinking, yeah? just being jealous? no. she texts me last night saying "it's like i want him too, but for you. like i want him soooo bad on your behalf" and, the kicker, "i'm really paranoid that he wants me instead of you. that's just such a nightmare scenario, i'd rather kms". 

now i've had a friend that said that about a love interest of mine before. i was dating a guy a while ago when one of my best friends at the time said to our mutual friends, "guys I'm scared killian likes me and is gonna break up with clee for me". he didn't like her. she liked him. she was projecting. that is what i think happened yesterday.

also, the whole time i've liked this guy, my best friend has been very adamant on the fact that she agrees with me that he's attractive. "i see it!!!" and so forth. he wears glasses most of the time, but sometimes he wears contacts and you can see his face a little better and i think it makes his eyes stand out and he has really pretty eyes yada yada whatever, and a couple days ago she was like "does he usually wear glasses?? he looks really good today without them oh my godddd like ooooh girl you better get him he's really really hot like i'm into him for you". right. yeah no that's okay yeah sure. yeah just say that to me. yup fine.

BY THE WAY! she has a boyfriend!!! but i've known her for a very long time, and if there's anything i know about her, it's that she WILL have crushes on other people while in a relationship. she has told me multiple times that she has had feelings for basically all of her friends at some point, but all of the friends she met at our high school she met WHILE dating her ex, that she was with for like four years, so the entire duration of hs. 

anyways don't piss me off bro. i really like this guy and i'm really excited about him. she's inserting herself into something that has absolutely nothing to do with her. let me like a guy and stay tf out of it. 

on top of it, he seems to be looking at her more when he's talking now, which could either be because she's interacting with him more now and it's a subconscious thing, OR that his attention is moving from me to her. i don't really know him yet, we've been getting to know each other more and more for a couple weeks but i dont know enough about him to know if he'd move his interest to someone else, or if he wouldn't be like that. we're not dating, so he wouldn't be doing anything wrong if his feelings moved from me to her, besides the fact that she has a boyfriend. 

nevermind he just texted me asking if i'm okay because just now at lunch i was getting upset about her and left early lol we #inthat

ugh i just don't want to make anything an issue because i hate making big deals out of shit and seeming like a dramatic insecure little bitch. especially when i'm first starting to talk to a guy because i dont want him to think i'm someone who makes an issue out of everything, particularly in a relationship. 

i also don't want to be one of those people who causes a rift in a female friendship over a boy. but like, i think it's justified of me to be upset that she's being immature and having very outward feelings for the guy that i have been into literally since i met him, which was before she met him, while, AGAIN, she has a fucking boyfriend. he just lives on the opposite side of the entire fucking country so he cant step in. help me out here bro your girl wants the guy i was about to date.

ykw, i shouldn't have to say "was". i shouldn't have to feel like now there's something in the way of me and him. i like him, and i'm pretty certain he likes me. that's between me and him, no one else. she can try to insert herself into it but that's not my problem.