my crushes boyfriend

hes not really my crush kinda hes just really pretty and i wanted to kiss him for a while but uhh 

i got kinda grossed out by his boyfriend (theyre not official, but they go on dates almost every day and most of their insta is just each other... and they went out on valentines so....) because hes generic shein emo boy number 2 and he supports wilbur soot (from lovejoy) and mindless self indulgence (no hate on people who like them i guess but like...dont support these guys) and we have the SAME NAME? what

we dont really look similar but I hate that we have so much in common (INCLUDING OUR NAMES WHAT THE HELL) and im mostly thinking "huh it could've been me but now he's dating my evil version" and my crush compared us once too so uhn weird.weird weird

sure its selfish to say hes my evil version but i'll never meet him anyway, it's not like I hate his guts (but I kinda do a little bit) but i think its kinda funny