My invisible girlfriend

There’s a lot of context regarding some of my current problems, honestly, so I’m just going to vent. I just went through my first relationship (yeah, 13 years old and I finally got a girlfriend), and it was the worst; I’m going to talk about her on this blog. It all started when I saw her from afar and fell head over heels for her—and I had no idea what a total bitch she was. She brought me nothing but trouble; I was an idiot—I gave everything for her, and she didn't even pay attention to me. It really hurt—a lot. But the worst part is, she wasn't the only person who made me cry so much in "my life right now." There was someone else who made me suffer even more than my girlfriend did because I got hooked on them; they weren't all that bad, but they lied to me and often made me feel terrible. And it was just a friendship—I mean, I was the one begging for attention in both a relationship and a friendship. Well, in the friendship I tried to hide it, but it was tearing me apart.

a. and I called her "invisible" because she never wanted to be with me in person—she always ran off (I don't know if out of shyness or disgust)—meaning she was invisible to me.