my music is too precious to me

so ive been wanting to release a track on soundcloud for i suppose quite a while but i keep telling myself no because i cant bear the idea of releasing music till i feel that ive satisfied myself with recreating the feeling that drove me to make it in the first place.

which is driving me crazy because now all i got on there is a silly clip of me singing with a sore throat like smth is wrong with me, everything else i had on there i wanted to compile into a ep but then i took it all down but sometimes i worry that if i dont start now ill never achieve anything good enough BUT i refuse to release actual tracks until i think it sounds pretty enough to make me feel pretty on the inside and like reflects how i see the world to be, does that make sense or am I losing it :>