My weird ass childhood drawings

TW SA MENTION I GUESS

not to be vulnerable, but i really wanna show how childhood mental health affects art

So i was around 10-13 when i first started getting hallucinations, delusions, illusions, etc.

I really lost it at church camp where i saw shit floating in the air and convinced myself a demon was attached to me, followed me home, was watching and sleeping next to me

A couple years before that specific incident i was also sexually assaulted by someone and never said anything

I didnt know how to express my feelings at all and would fill my sketchbook with random drawings to show how i felt

To some people they might look like edgy pre teen drawings (and maybe they just are) but to me it was the feelings i didnt even know were in my brain

The figures of my drawings were always missing something

A mouth, an eye, a head, a limb. A hole in the chest of one and pieces taken from it, bite marks

I looked at these drawings for a while and thought i was just being weird, now that i've started processing some of these memories i've realized it might be a bit deeper

this might be cringe, might delete, ive never attached my face to any of this stuff before now and i hope no one i know in real life is on here

HERES ONE THAT WAS JUST ME BEING WEIRD LOL