Obsessing over a character

I feel so embarrassed to have my brain be taken up by a COOKIE man. Shadow Milk Cookie is genuinely one of the best things that I've ever been introduced to. Not only that, but his first headmaster costume is so beautiful, I've never been this interested in a character before that weren't just my own or some that I would spontaneously have interest in before the flame would die out. However, the same can not be said for this stupid blue jester with far too many issues. Legit bits of him are in my characters, whether it's his personality, his mannerisms, or his physical appearance, he is a stain on my life and I need to see him blow up.

I mean this all positively if you couldn't tell by now. I NEED Shadow Milk Cookie injected into my blood stream, please tell me I'm not the only one who's insane over this cookie bro. Legit got upset when I didn't get his new costume after 50+ pulls in the costume gacha. 💔