Obsessive love

I've always been an obsessive person. I was looking through my camera roll today and found tons of screenshots of messages between girls I've had feelings for. Old photos of them, their house on a map, who they follow. I want to know everything about them. 

Watching Zombie Stage seems to have brought it back to me: my love for obsession. Seeing Sua break in to infect herself through/by Mizi made my stomach flutter. Reading what other people thought about the scene made me confused. People didn't find that attractive? Not even the slightest bit? Im sure it's a part of my depression, but I can't seem to wrap my head around how that's off-putting for people.

Consumption is another aspect I find incredibly... romantic? erotic? Vampires seducing then feeding on people they grow close to, regardless of gender, is sort of beautiful. Cannibalism is of course another one. It's edgy, but I like it. I can never be physically close enough to those I love; I want to eat them or mesh our skin together into something ugly, so it's only us forever. I want to feel their raw bone bump mine as I slip into their ribcage and fall asleep.