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howdyy😸😸 i finally got my pills upped and im having a pretty decent day today.😼 i bought some snacks and things to bake with to keep myself occupied, big death in the family so i’ll get used to fawning around people for a few😽

 i dont quite grieve so its just another day but my mom was close to her so im trying to learn how to express condolences properly .she’s away again and has taken her husband and other person, i’ve been with my brothers. 

im supposed to have therapy this week but the temp’s getting too cold for my liking to be able to travel to another town😓maybe reschedule for spring because i hate hate hate hate hate the colddd😿😾i know its forever but i think i’ll be fine until then with just my pills😸

ive been using a lot lately and my heart’s been starting to hurt a bit so i’m thinking that i shouldnt have missed my echocardiogram appt, ack. i got pelted with rain on my way back home from the store, like the rain was attacking my eyes specifically. tights are soaked to my legs but its so nice and warm inside that im not upset😸 bad time to drive an atv