On Overcoming Killer Anxiety

Killer anxiety sucks. I could be in lobby, all geared up with my favorite cosmetic, with a fantastic build loadout— Whether that build be one that's optimal and meta, or fun and interesting, doesn't really matter. No matter how prepared I am, hitting that Start Queue button is terrifying. 

Survivors can be weirdly mean, and the matchmaking in Dead By Daylight has been screwy for forever. Maybe survivors will be fantastic and well coordinated, easily making you seem like a chump. Or maybe they'll be brand new, and you'll feel like a jerk for taking advantage of it for an easy win. Or maybe they'll be perfectly average, but the second you Use Your Ability, you are the antichrist in their eyes.

All those things together will have me staring at the Queue button for hours instead of playing a game that I love.

But you know what? Screw it!

Dead By Daylight is asymmetrical. There will always, always be imbalance. There will always, always be someone who is upset. You could play the game entirely normally, and someone will be upset. You could take it easy and just play around with survivors, and someone will still be upset.

The game is designed in a way where, no matter what you do, how you play, or how fair you are— someone will always hate you.

Note to self, and anyone else who suffers Killer Anxiety: 

Just embrace it. If they're going to hate you for existing in a role, you may as well give them a reason to. Use that super-meta cheese build. Slug the people who keep surrounding you for quick blinds. Tunnel out that one person who has been causing problems all game. Who fucking cares? 

You're a Killer. Act like one.