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I am at peace tonight. I don’t know why. I keep thinking of being forgiven, of being liked again by the person I harmed. I hope they don’t, I hope they hate me for their own safety, but the feeling — while also knowing that it should never happen — has given me an odd sense of closure. 

It won’t last forever. Tomorrow I might wake up and be sickened by myself. But tonight I feel as if I’m resting peacefully, no guilt nor harm encroaches upon me. I can’t help but wonder why I feel this way. Maybe it’s because I got a new interest and it’s late at night, maybe it’s because my intuition is right (I hope not), maybe I’m just having another one of my mood swings. But I like it. I probably won’t go to sleep for quite a while longer.