preferred names and pronouns exploration

i wish i didnt live in a anti trans state bc i really want the freedom of exploring diff names n pronouns like i want to try out the name arthur bc its a name i would like maybe have when i changed my name legally (if i will still be able to) but i still have my irls use roz bc it can be “jst a nickname” for safety stuff, and on twt i had neopronouns in my bio but no one used them bc they would rather use the he/him or they/them (n tbh i gave up n now jst use he/him bc i dont identify w they/them n no one will try neopronouns on me) n its jst frustrating bc i jst want to explore myself n my identity like ik im a guy but that doesnt have to limit me n i can still explore other things about myself n no matter what pronouns i realize i identify w, i am comfortable w my trans identity 

i mean this is also semi related to the hate neopronouns n micro labels in this community which is so stupid omg but im not gonna get into that, no matter what i say its not gonna change bigots opinions so i jst dont talk to ppl w those opinions

ok this rant was actually a lot shorter than i thought it would be but wtvr 

anyways main point is i wish ppl were allowed to explore all the diff parts of their identity like all kinds of pronouns wo all the hate n internal lgptq phobia that a lot of the community has n hope one day i can get to do all the exploration i want to do 

thats it soo

roz out!