Queer

For every star hung in the sky
And every night spent in emotional nigh
I find it difficult to leave you behind
For every shade serves to remind
You face this attention day by day
Over and over, your mind grows to decay
But they will never understand
Every grin hidden behind your hand
They will never recognize
The specific agony in your eyes
But the fact you're a compulsive liar
Only draws my attention higher yet higher
From a certain perspective, it's easy to claim
Every word of mine is without honest aim
I may hold the map to your own instability
If you'd only give me the honor of looking to see
For I have walked this path many times before
Even if it leads to the same drowned door
Through death and through the shift of ego
It is only you who I continue to know
My expectations are ridiculous, that's true
Assumptions of the shift I saw in you
And yet it's so clear that I could be right
In my thought formed in the dark of night
If only I could just find out how to communicate
If I had only thought of it sooner than too late
I might be able to tell you, corpse of a dove
That I am so much more than in love

Gay ass poem for somebody I know irl only but can't text them.