rant bc im full of emotions

vent or smth?? idk??

i yearn for something i once had. i dream of the comfort i used to love. but i am very aware i will never feel that again. 

people expect me to move on and forget but everything just slowly eats away at me until i fall apart. nobody can ever seem to decide if i am not good enough or if i am too much. and it hurts. it really hurts. i am so confused right now. i have no clue who i am and who i want to be. 

i am just so tired. like actually exhausted. everyone expects me to just be able to do everything and still maintain my mental health. i have been so busy lately that i forget to take my meds 4 out of 7 days a week.

and do not even get me started on the part where everyone is just mean to me. like why are the people i literally live with telling me i am ugly and unloved. i have no fucking clue what to do anymore.

atp i need to be in a coma for a month or smth 😭 anything js to get a break ig