Relationships + Dating

Throughout high school and into my first month of college, all of my friends have been in relationships. 

Yeah, I've dated too... but it's been years, and it's never gone well. (That's a story for another post, if ever at all)

Okay, yeah, I'm jealous. But is dating even really for me?

In theory, it sounds great: you're committed to someone who, from my viewpoint, should be one of your greatest, if not your best friend. I love my bff. But not like that.

Social media makes dating seem so much more complicated. What IS a situationship? 

Listen. I'm saying this as if I don't have a tendency toward self-isolation. Who am I kidding? Someone shows me even remotely a little bit of affection, platonic or otherwise, and I send myself into a tizzy. #embarrassing 

I freak myself out over a lot. I try to keep it on the down low. I am not nonchalant. I am about as chalant as they come. I'm scared. People are gorgeous, and I'm not even cool????

I'm literally just gay and weird.