sayaka coded

im too fucked to have a intimate relationship, too self destructive to help myself, and too stupid to give out and proper advice other than what not to do 

so all I can do really is put my trust in others for them to trust themselves, all in the hopes that someone else will get to live a better life, because why spend what little I have on myself? what's the point in that really? I'd rather make someone elses tower just a little bit taller even at the cost of my life