School??

(Wait editing seven here- i forgot to change the category, it’s not art lmao it’s actually just a rant)

Lowkey I might be a weirdo but I actually like school, it might just be my GAD or whatever but I like having a planned out day, I’m an online student, I do edgenuity classes for my main courses (I do electives in person) but anywyas i like the fact I know what I’m going to be doing all day, every day

It’s weird to me buttt whatever, for me I need a schedule to be around, to plan my day, if I don’t do that then I wouldn’t know what to do for the day and stay in my room 

And if I do have something to do that day I contemplate and walk around trying not to worry about that thing I have to do, and if it’s disruptive then I tend to freak out most times or get an overwhelming feeling of anxiety or distress for no reason.. an example I’ve had recently is my dentist appointment, I was supposed to go this month around the start of the month, I planned and set the date

The dentist said they couldn’t do it that day anymore and canceled the appointment… my dad said they rescheduled it to the next 2 weeks… 2 weeks later and no response now I’m stuck having to worry abt when my next appointment is.. what if it’s tomorrow and I don’t know and then I can’t go because of school and becuase I’m sick as hell and stuff… what if it WAS like last week and I didn’t go befsuse I didn’t know and that means I just made a waste of their time and money🤔

And what if I was supposed to reschedule it the whole time and because I didn’t I’m going to be slimed out SONN

But I mean it’s good i didn’t go.. bc I still go.. too.. a.. KIDS DENTIST. I’m gonna sob

16 YEARS OLD BTW. IN JUNIOR YEAR. BY. THE. WAY. 

Fuckkkkk anywyas off topic

But yeah I need a schedule, school has that schedule for me that I can revolve my life around, so I don’t ever need to worry about what I’m doing next or what I’ll be missing.. because ILL ALREADY INOW HAHAHAHAHA