sexuality crisis

I fear I am realizing that I am a lesbian 😭

Every time I talk to a guy I back away the moment he asks me to be his gf. I don't want to be a mans gf (which is why I thought I was trans for a while) but I realized I would love to be called a girls gf.

Also most of my crushes in movies have been girls. I don't think I have ever actually had a crush on a guy (that wasn't a celebrity or a fictional man like Gilbert Blythe). I have always stared at girls in movies like Frances in Dirty Dancing and Rose in Titanic instead of the men. There's a whole list but those are the big things like uh oh