so like identity right

i don't get debilitating dysphoria like ever (dont kill me), but when i hear a friend who im not out to refer to me as she im like "damn..." in like a disappointed way yk. cuz i genuinely forget that gender exists and i genuinely forget that i look like a girl most of the time ("0_0)

but even though i dont have gender, i still feel happy being referred to with masculine shit like he or sum. i personally am not a huge fan of they but like whatever. i dont get dysphoric presenting fem cuz i like fashion but today i actually attempted to look masc and i was like damnnnn this shit is fire im sexy as fuck! my friend said she barely recognized me and i was like yell heah bro!!

thats why i feel like in terms of being trans, i really think we should value euphoria a little bit more bc love yourself. fym im not trans bc i dont want to hang myself for having boobs? my gender isn't queer because im not depressed? what??? do u hear yourself!?!?!? why is it such a crime to feel like "being this is merely okay, but being this other thing is better"????

why do some trans people want other trans people to be suicidal so bad? like fuck you ho imma stay alive just to spite ur loser ass go suck a cheesy dick you shitty booty ass bitch

last year i thought i was agenderfluid but i soon realized that i dont want a defined gender, fuck that shit, im just nico. but still, i don't want to be referred to with feminine pronouns at ALL bc that just isn't me. why should i feel a need to label myself? BUT AT THE SAME TIME, give me every goddamn microlabel that applies to me bc who cares! identity is convoluted as shit is what im saying, so leave people the hell alone about it

anywhosies, im absolutely a transmasculine agenderboy, yell heah!! jus dont ask me about my sexuality im too lazy to figure that out rn