sometimes i wonder if anything hears me when I pray..

Sometimes i wonder if anything hears me when I pray badly, because noone taught me how to pray.
Because I hold religion the wrong way, how the bible tells you not to.. I hold it selfishly I'm just looking for something I still haven't found. Maybe it's peace, maybe even I don't know what it is exactly. Maybe that's why I can't find it.

Sometimes I want to believe that there is a reason I chose to be baptized back then, but there is also a reason why I didn't confirmed at the end. There is a reason why I stepped back from confirming my place in the church.

I wouldn't say I'm a believer. I don't think I earned the right for that. I don't believe how a person who believes should, I don't read the bible, I don't attend church. I am still unsure ever since what I believe.