Songs that have I a personal connection with (TW: mentions of r4pe, SA, SH, su1c1de)

This is basically gonna be a long, evergrowing list of songs that I have a super personal connection with. The songs aren't really all in the same genre, just random ass songs that hold a special part in my heart. Anyways, here's the list, woohoo:

White Boy - Bikini Kill (released 1994 on their album The First Two Records)

This song is basically a white guy saying that chicks are asking to be fucked and hit on and sexually assaulted, and Kathleen Hanna is singing about how the girls are forced to fulfill every command that they get from the guy, hence the lyric "Ill try to scream a little nicer next time", when the guy tells a girl to be quiet. I resonate with this song because I've been raped and sexually assaulted by a bunch of asshole white guys.. and every one of them said that "I was asking for it" by the way I acted. Anyone close to me could tell you I dont act like a 'slut' or a 'whore'. But according to the men, Im loud, Im cocky, and Im bratty, so that automatically means I want someone in my pants (thank god im dating someone who knows wtf respect is now 😭)

Doll Parts - Hole (released 1994 on their album Live Through This)

This song is basically yearning and romantic insecurity. Courtney wrote this about Kurt before they got married. She wrote it when they first started seeing eachother, plagued by anxiety that he would find someone better and start dating them instead due to a loss of interest. This is exactly how I feel when I start dating someone. I feel like Im not good enough and that theyre immediately going to start looking for better options. The 'doll parts' in the song is basically resembling the feeling of being fake or disposable. Use it until you get tired of it and throw it away. It's thinking someone is only interested in the idea of using you and breaking you. I always have anxiety while dating someone, because I'm so used to being used, so I never fully trust anyone I date.

okay wait im unmotivated again. ill add more later.