start talking nonsensically NOW.

Due to my potential brain damage and whatever the fuck happened to my brain when I came out of the womb I can, at times, find it extremely hard to put words together. If I’m having a flare up of stupidity it will take my upwards of 20 seconds to formulate a sentence I already know how to say but can’t get out of my mouth. It’s not that I don’t know grammar or how to use my words, I’m not dumb, I just take a good long while to talk. I am looking for a reason for this because not being able to communicate or even move my limbs properly sometimes due to my brain just. not knowing how to. is very annoying. especially because I AM smart, but I mix up my words and sometimes even forget what I’m saying right as I say it. I also struggle with doing things in order and remembering instructions. 

I’ve started talking, to my closest friend, in a completely nonsensical way. As long as it’ll generally make sense I’ll say it or text it to them. I just asked if I could take the laptop to the Saturday. Saturday isn’t a place but I didn’t want to spend all of my brain power trying to find the words to say whatever I wanted to say (I can’t even type it rn lol) so.. I’m taking my laptop to the Saturday. I have the same grammar as ‘scientists reveal the Hi’ whenever I can’t be bothered to sound like I actually know how to articulate sentences. Hopefully I’m not naturally this slow and this can be fixed but it’s kinda fun when I don’t look like a complete and utter loser. I’ve tried to insult people multiple times but mixed up words and someone called me out for it once and it was very embarrassing.