Surviving is all I can do, and yet I'm horrible at even that.

I found out my parents aren't celebrating their fifteenth anniversary this year. Its on May 21st. Apparently celebration needs money and effort. I know it ain't a big deal, but my family's been falling apart since my brother graduated high school [a few years back]. We no longer sit at the dining room table to eat dinner as a family and talk as a family. Its just me. Alone. I sit there and I stare at my food wondering what the hell happened to my family. My parents fight all the time now, there are some moments where I see them being a couple but..its mostly fighting. I can't live like this till I myself graduate! That's in four years, I'm sorry but I cant wait that long. I get yelled at for every little thing, dishes aren't cleaned properly? Its now the whole house's problem including our cats. Its annoying. Its frustrating. Its like living with a  ticking time bomb. I cried myself to sleep last night when I found out they aren't gonna celebrate their 15 years. I know that's pathetic. All I have to say for myself is that I'm watching my family fall apart and I can't do anything about it. Just survive the four years till the divorce, till the everything. Just survive till I kick myself out. And I don't know if I can anymore.