talking

talking to other people feels so… boring… i usually dont really care about stuff but when it comes to tlaking to others i always get distracted by thinking stuff like “do i sound like i care?” or “can they tell im interested in this?” and its not like im going crazy over it… but it sucks to think about how much i care what someone else thinks about me.

i actually like how i dont match peoples energy sometimes, it shows how different we really are as humans, how not everyone is a perfect carbon copy of each other. of course itd be nice to match energy with someone, and i like when it happens, but we all need the yin to our yang.

i guess being antisocial has a few benefits (however you spell it) but then again, there are some negative parts about it. For example, i AB-SO-LUTELY suck at dming first or sending the first request. I literally made an entire other account just because i was scared of all the attention.

another thing is talking to the oppisite sex. in my opinion it feels… easier? Like, i dont have to make sure im saying the stuff that normal dudes do when i talk to a chick… idk if that part makes sense though…