the one time being super full of myself is not that fun

I want to be a model & actress right? ok well i also want everyone i have ever met to recognize me but im one of those people whos face changes a lot (does that make sense? like i think ill look way less recognizable a few years from now but i could be wrong) and i dont like my name at all 

my name on here is not my legal name irl, i wish it were but my first name is more like along the lines of emma or rachel or elizabeth or smth and my last name is super common like uhhh smith or davis or whatever and also MY DAD has that last name Release meeeeeeee

if i changed my name then how will people from my past google me and find out "omg shes so rich and famous now.... shes so above me..." and start crying? how will that happen?

and i dont hate my name THAT much i guess. it has a shortened version that i do like. but that shortened version can only be linked to the longer version and no other name and i dont like the meaning of it but i know nobody thinks of that

I could go by a psuedonym tho and just not change my legal name, that might be what i do. but i dont know