The struggles of being Acrisexual (I WILL TALK ABOUT SEXUAL STUFF IF U DONT LIKE IT DONT READ IT)

Acrisexual - an a-spec identity to describe an experience where one feels sexual attraction, but it feels wrong or unnatural to be feeling it, like it should not happen to them

I am Acrisexual (I think)

It really sucks.

I have no idea why it feels so wrong to have these feelings. It doesn't feel unnatural to me but it just feels wrong, like I'm not supposed to have those feelings. Whenever I do have them it makes me nervous and uncomfortable, like I'm unable to open up. I used to be an incredibly sexual person, I had no filter and would make a lot of sexual jokes and would be sexual with my partners. Looking back on it makes me disgusted and uncomfortable, its not that I think sex is gross or anything it just feels like I can't engage in it, like I shouldn't initiate it or bring it up because then I would be a weird pervert and I don't want to be that! 

I just think its a lot of overthinking, I might not even be Acrisexual! it just kinda describes how I feel???