(Some of the last few pages of Tracy’s diary)
“Today I joined a new forum. It’s about a scary TV series. I watched all of it at work in like 2 days. I watch movies at work now, no one said I can’t so why not, it's sick. Now I can join more forums online, everything will be faster. It’s been a few months since I last took a life. I’m getting kinda hungry. (there's a drawing of her last victim)”
"The scary series worked. Lots of people near my city are in the forum. Also a guy there keeps bugging me Idk why. He could be good for us but he’s my real age. I’m not used to that."
"The guy asked me out FIRST?? That never happened before. I think he wants to kill me? If he wants to kill me I'll kill him too. I didn’t know what to say so I said come to my house like always. what if he is faking like me? Maybe I'll die soon. My plan for him is our usual, but I feel a strange fear. It’s different this time. I hope he is short. Tiny and fatty like the others (there's a drawing of some teenagers next to her, they are smaller)"
“TODAYS TITLE IS: FUCKING SHIT. IM SO SO SCREWED. He's TOO BIG. I was so scared today. Bad idea I cant do this. I felt bad all day. A scariness I never felt before. So scared shit. I hate this. I tried to look normal I was ACTING and I was so good at it bc he was being nice too. it's the first time nobody said my place is gross or my food is gross, THAT I HAD TO REALLY COOK THIS TIME. ITS LIKE HE DIDNT WANT TO SEE HOW SCARED I WAS. WHY. HOW BAD IS HE. HES A KILLER I KNEW. HE IS LIKE ME. I AM DEAD”
“Can't sleep now. I think he drugged me. Writing what we did today so I remember for survival. His name is Evan. So he came in and scared me right away. He gave me tea bags in a box I think its from the movie. I wont drink it. Poison maybe. REMEMBER: NOT DRINK TEA. Then he said a new episode of the series came out today and he wanted to watch it with me IN THE DARK. I said yes but I thought I was gonna die the whole time. We got in my bed and watched it with lights off. The series isn't scary to me I think the characters are dumb. This time I think I'm dumb too. Then I cooked him food (she drew an annoyed face) he wanted to help me I said no, I couldn't do the thing anyway… he ate my ramen. Then he talked about his parents, I remember that part. He left after and said he wants to see me again. I'm dead. I need something stronger. Boiling method is too weak."
"FOUND THE SOLUTION. I went to a hunting shop today. I wanted to buy a bear pepper spray. I found the strongest one there is, it's perfect for me. Then I went to the cashier and the idiot cashier was laughing the whole time for some reason. He asked me if a polar bear was following me and to not get caught I said yes. He laughed again and gave the spray to me for free. I hope he doesn't have any suspicion about me (she draw herself with a lot of money and the pepper spray, sprayng the cashier)"
"I am so mad. There’s a girl I have never ever seen before that found out me and Evan went out together and now she doesn’t leave me alone. She is CONSTANTLY ANNOYING ME. SHE IS LYING ABOUT ME ONLINEE SO MANY LIES. SHES A BITCH. I hate this girl I want to KILL HEEERRR. I'll go to prison just for her. She’s ugly SHES SUCH A BITCH FOR LYING ABOUT ME ONLINE. I had to delete my account TWICE. Now again she is insulting me. I hate her. Evan said to ignore her and right also we will see each other again me and Evan yes in a day. I'm ready this time. I have everything. I also said it to that FUCKING ASSHOLE GIRL"
(The next page is full of scratched-out words)
"I'm getting used to the feeling of death, I saw him today at the park, the plan was to bring him home right after to use my new method. He was being nice again today. I think he’s really stupid for being nice to me like that. He reminds me of my old dog, when mom and dad would go out for groceries, it was just me and my dog, he never barked when we were alone, everything was quiet, he made me forget how hungry I was. I went to a steakhouse today after"
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