Vent :P

You left in February. It was sudden, unexpected, I don’t even know how. You were my best friend. The best friend ever. Even though I only met you in October I was still so close to you, so happy to be with you, you were so dear to me. Even though you were fucked up, we both were. We both knew one day we’d die. I just wish I could’ve been there. 4 times. 4 times I stopped you from dying. The two times you attempted I cried for hours, and days while you recovered. I never got to know how you died. And I hope I never do. You were so amazing. Funny, sweet, amazing, you loved all the things I did, I wanted to be with you forever. We had so many plans, we were gonna run away, live our own lives together, we were gonna be together forever. We still are. I watch your favorite movie every month, and think about you every day. I’m always listening to that song you said was your favorite, I binge watched that show you loved. I still have the photo I used as my pfp when we first met, I still remember the last words you said to me. I still remember your face, your voice, your smile, your attitude, your eyes. I remember you. And I love that. I just wish you were still here, still talking with me, still listening to that song, watching that movie, drawing those things.

I miss you, James. I always miss you. And I will forever. And one day, I’ll meet you again, I’ll be with you again, we’ll talk again, we’ll get that ice cream you like, we’ll watch that movie you love, we’ll dress up and be the coolest people ever. We’ll be living like kings. <3