Venting

Hey guys, i just feel so gloomy and procrastinating lately. I just started uni. Made different connections here and there, some good, some not so good, and some where i really really be their friend, but don't know how. Everyday i wake up, get dressed as a diva, but then in my head i spoil everything saying stuff "oh, im not cool enough for them" or " stop acting like a lost baby, and go talk to someone" or, " JUST GO AND SPEAK", and that ends up in hating my actions, being heavy with myself and stuff like that. All this, because i really wanna find my tribe, but at the same time not feeling bad, for developping another connection. In bettere words, while i talk to another group, i'm scared that my "usual, compfort group" or "cool group" would get closer without me, and I can't really find anything intersting to say for that "funny friend group" vibe. I'm just venting out my feelings as a first year university, 21 year old with a cool perosnality, but want to be chosen and thaught. Can anyone relate to me? If yes, can i have some advise? I also really hope someone finds this, so i can be helped lol <333