wassup world

im hammerboy4000 and im new here

what to write, what to write...

oh yeah lately I've been trying to learn how to program, but it's kinda weird. i've always wanted to make my own games and web sites, but theres so much to learn! i mean, you have to know HTML and all this other stuff, and now i find out theres math involved too? I'm not bad at math or anything, but i really wish i could just make games without having to worry about all that stuff

im someone who always like to think about the present, the here and now, but sometimes i think about the future. sometimes a bit more than i need to. im wondering if i ever become a game developer someday, would i be happy? or would i find it boring and regretable? im starting to think both answers r right, but that makes no sense...

is there something i actually like? do i actually like this? maybe its that i do want to become a programmer but i dont like how much hard work i have to go through, and if thats the case im pretty pathetic -_-

i might b overthinking this 2 lol. i mean, i could always quit whenever i wanna, but i dont wanna seem like a loser cuz ive quit a lotta things i rly liked but just couldnt keep up w/ :/ maybe i just find this more tolerable than sumthing boring like being a school janitor or whatever. idk what 2 feel @ all tbh, but im gonna keep going & see what future me thinks... hes gonna have my answer :)

btw i dont just wanna become a programmer... i wanna get into a lotta stuff. i wanna get into drawing, anim8ing, skateboarding & music makin' n stuff. but im @ rock bottom rn so i gotta keep going... :/

soz if my blog looks kinda crappy rn lolol i have like NO idea what im doing on this website x_x but this is def one of the things ill work on too!! lol

btw, in case u couldnt tell alr, im pretty much in love w/ games XD i swear i could marry them lol. is there a place where i can actually talk about games w/ other ppl? :)