Weird Dysphoria

does anyone else feel dysphoric around the stupidest stuff? I’m trans and I feel REALLY dysphoric whenever I see a feminised version of the occult / of science because researching and being interested in the occult is euphoric for me because of all of the mad-scientist men Ive always looked up to. I saw a book about manifestation and it was targeted towards women and I felt rlly weird about it. I feel the same way around women being the majority in spaces centred around mlm ships like jayvik 

of course I mean no hate or harm towards these women, I don’t blame them, and I know it’s irrational. I just can’t help but feel dysphoric about it. I also get dysphoric seeing women in sweater vests…? being trans is so stupid bruh

I just want to know I’m not alone in this because it’s so irrational and I’m scared people will hate me for my feelings, even if I know theyre weird and dont ever do anything because of them