weird feeling in torso

I keep having this really uncomfortable feeling in my lower torso. It’s like someone is reaching their hand into the space below my stomach and tickling my uterus with 20 feathers. I hate it. It usually happens when people do more positive things (though I don’t feel positive about it) like my father telling me that he stayed up at night thinking about how sick I currently am, my mother telling me that she’ll call me by my real name and that I’m her child, and having nice interactions with people on discord. But I don’t feel the physical emotion of happiness, I just get a centipede crawling around the space below my belly buttton, under my skin. It doesn’t feel good at all, I hate it. It also might make my left leg go weird but my left leg is always weird.

I don’t think it’s arousal or anything like that. No other reactions of that sort happen. It feels like a cramp, but if a cramp was pink, like a unicorn rubbing its slightly-too-prickly fur onto your stomach, but it gets inside of your skin and is rubbing into your organs, and it’s meant to heal you but it just feels really terrible. There’s that smaller tingling feeling there right now and I hate it. I don’t like these peaceful mode Minecraft cramps. 

There’s no happiness connected to it other than maybe a small amount of feeling flattered whenever it happens. Sometimes it feels too hot, like it’s burning a little. Is there a reason for it? Is that what love feels like physically? If so, I hate it, and it needs to stop trying to impregnate me. I’m getting a restraining order. Or is it just some weird medical condition. Or am I the only one with unicorn fur and pink pretty centipedes in his stomach? 

Ignore my weird way of picturing things, I’m just confused and trying to explain myself. Genuinely what is this feeling. I’ve been experiencing it for a little while now and I want to scratch myself until it goes away, or writhe and shake the feeling off. It isn’t nice at all. Eugh. EUGH. eeuuuguhhhhhmmhm. get OFF of me. 

maybe it’s a cute version of nightmares, those horses that sit on your chests while you sleep and give you nightterrors. I have a therapy mini horse laying on my stomach and I don’t like it. 

edit: I may just be a reincarnated furnace