what do I do🤔

hi so a few weeks ago I watched this video of some guy saying like "day one of asking my dad for (some instrument idk maybe a flugelhorn)" and in the video he goes up to his dad saying "hey father" (which I lowkey do sometimes) and then his dad went "hello son" or something like that and. I guess it made something in me click that I would want my dad to call me son. I never really thought that before, but for some odd reason that video made me realize that??? anyways I tried not thinking of it, and so i kinda forgot. until one day I sorta realized that I'd get genuinely excited/happy by someone referring to me by he/him pronouns. like woah?? I kept imagining scenarios in which ppl would be talking about me and they'd use he/him and I would actually feel good by that. which like. I also feel happy when imagining scenarios in which they use they/them on me. and yk she/her but all my life I've been referred to as a girl, which I don't rlly have a problem with, considering I DO feel like a girl, however I'd also feel happy with they/them. Or maybe he/him too????? maybe???? I don't know anymore dude this is confusing. Im gonna go back to schoolwork now and figure this out later