im such a fucking ugly bitch like im stupid and everyone hates me and im so annoying
why cant i be like everyone else cuz everyone else is like an appropriate volume and always knows what to do and then i dont and they say "dude how do u not know this lollll" and everyone else has known this for their entire lives and im just fucking stupid
im at a new school again and everyone is being nice to me but i can already tell they're gonna get to know me too well and they're slowly gonna decide they dont wanna be friends with me cuz im an ugly annoying bitch and i copy everyone and im self centered and stuck up and i hold everyone back and i think i know everything
and i just dont know what to do about any of that i try so hard but i always fuck up again
and why cant i like anyone, like i have my online friends and i like them but every time i try to make other friends like ill talk to them i guess and i say we're friends and i kind of stand near them but i just cant relate to them and i have nothing to say to them
im so jealous of people that didnt move 5000 times because everyone here has lived here their entire lives and they know exactly who they are and what they're gonna be doing
i miss when i lived in texas and i was like that
now i dont know anyone and everyone else is already in their cliques and im just trying to force myself in but they'll never like me or get meĀ
my stomach hurts really really bad oh my god
as soon as i turn 18 im moving back to dallas i cant take this anymore i dont know anything
i always hoped i would get used to it after a while but like i moved up here in june 2025 and i was supposed to be here the whole time, my whole family is from around here and the only reason we moved to dallas when i was little is because my mom could get a job there but then we moved back up here after i was already like acclimated and now i dont know anything and i havent been to the same school for more than a year since elementary school
i miss knowing what i was gonna do why am i here i hate being here i wish i was going to school with my friends instead of being the new weird girl who talks too much about shit no one cares about again
everyone else went trick or treating with their friends or went to a party and i didnt do anything
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victorisavampire
no one is inherently bad. good and evil are just social structures when really almost everything is grey; we have morals because we need them to have a functioning and self-serving society. but if we were self-serving, then almost nothing would be bad. there are many different ways to look at a scenario, and morality and what is good/bad is completely and utterly subjective. so you may not have worth to society but it does not mean in any way that you are any less of a person.Ā
you might want to get into therapy and local groups/clubs if you're not already so you can work through these emotions because you probably are likeable, you're probably just around the wrong people