Wtf is wrong with me

I'm the type of person to get deeply attached and obsessed to one person. The type of person to never let go. I crave being loved so badly I'd do anything to be loved, to be someones favorite. I'd love them so so much.

But...I'm also a toxic person, I'd say. I get easily angry and I'm very insicure. I get jelous easily. I try not to be, but its so difficult.

I might be going crazy. I've been seeing this one person in my dreams. They are perfect. So utterly perfect. The only thing I know about them, that they have short black hair and a loose t-shirt. I'm sure they are real. They have to be real. I can't get rid of this thought that they exist. I know that they do and I'm gonna meet them one day.

I just realized how fucking cringe I sound but I have no other way to put my feelings into words.