goood morniiiing!! （*＾3＾）/～♡
i woke up feeling good, but my boyfriend is in a very sad mood regarding some work issues regarding his employees :( this is his first time being anything higher than a shift manager so he just really wants to do a good job. he is so sweet and caring, it breaks my heart to see him sad. (つ﹏⊂) he doesn't go in til 2pm so i get to spend some time with him today which i'm very happy about. ヽ(>∀<☆)ノ
i really need to invest in a good pair of wrist braces - my lifelong issue with numbness and tingling has been getting worse and worse as the days go by. i think i need to get back on my nerve pain medicine too, it's so bad. to test for the severity and extent of the nerve damage you have to take a test called an EMG, an electromyography test. they insert needles into your upper arm and down by your wrist and they send shocks from the upper to the lower needle to see how well/quickly your muscles/nerves carry the electrical signal.
but here's the kicker: it only detects large fiber neuropathy - extremely severe damage. you can have small fiber neuropathy which can be just as painful, but the test will give you a false negative. you can still receive treatment for SFN but if you don't take the test and/or receive a positive result, your insurance and/or doctor can refuse treatment. it's such a frustrating process. our medical system as a whole is in fucking shambles, y'all!!!
anyway~ my friend kaitlyn is coming over todayyyy i'm so excited! (๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ we have lil gifts for eachother. having company usually helps my body/brain stay awake, so fingers crossed! (￣▽￣) gonna take my adderall now so i can make sure i'm ready. i'm going to be trying XR adderall again as well to see if that makes any difference. (；一_一)
i love u guys so much!!
~alaska