i love my best friend more than anything else in the world, but she is so annoying sometimes.

i feel so bad anytime we spent time together, but ive been carrying with a huge hatred and envy towards her for the past 5 years. She always has what she wants, but most importantly she has a lot of friends and claims that no one likes her. An inmature problem of mine, i know. But i can't help it. Ive lost a lot of friends because of her, because everyones loves her even though she is always acting like a cringe and dumb child. Ugh, something that also makes me want to blow my head off is that she minimizes my own problems, when i told her i was SA'd at a summer camp, she just told me to suck it up. But anytime i look at her laughing with me at dumb shit, i feel warm. 

I understand this feeling. She is fun to spend time with but she can't truly be a close friend because she ignores how you feel. Maybe try to open up to someone else. Sometimes you just need to find the right people. 

Bro, Have you never tried, I don't know, to distance yourself from her? It's stupid to try to stay in a friendship where you don't feel comfortable for several reasons. You're only with her because she makes you feel seen, it's silly, but you should start looking for other people. You shouldn't stay in a friendship where they don't even respect the things that bother you, there are plenty of great people out there who won't be connected to them. Try it; you have nothing to lose

Please be careful. I get that she's fun to be around, but if she's minimizing your problems (especially something as serious as SA!!) and costing you other relationships that is not good and probably not safe. I agree with what others have said- spend some time.with other people.