socialization issues

i feel like i'm very awkward and quiet in real life. i'm very used to being talked over and ignored, and i feel as if whenever i say something i end up embarrassing myself. and when i actually do try and talk to people i feel they inevitably get annoyed by me. i'm only really social to people in real life who i'm very close with.

i really like talking to people who have stuff in common with me, because for the most part, in real life i feel like i'm always surrounded by people who just have nothing in common with me and just see me as some alien because i'm weird, awkward and different. it's hard to explain.

and because i'm so awkward i feel like i'm the butt of the joke. when i was in high school, i was well known but not popular, because i was a weird kid surrounded by a bunch of snobs. i'm proud of who i am, but i can't determine if me being antisocial is holding me back or if i really am annoying sometimes.

me too, i feel like i have nothing in common with my irl friends except for a couple of shows. But even then we never really talk about them. Online people say my interests and hobbies are cool, but irl i feel alienated for trying to express myself through clothes or accessories. I also have bad social skills irl and am much better at talking online, but I'm really soft spoken and ppl assume i don't wanna be talked to bc of it, also bc i have a resting sad face :/ I'm really awkward in social settings and usually when someone does wanna be my friend, I tend to avoid them on accident because i'm afraid they'll leave me and see that i'm too different from who they want to be friends with.

I feel similar. There is not many people in my life who I can relate to on a minimal level, and I feel as if all of my worst memories are of me spending time with other people, which is why I try to minimise interaction with others as much as possible. I'd like to find people in real life who have stuff in common with me, but I have not found anyone who fundamentally shares similar values to myself. It's all so tiresome. 

i think it is good to try be social but it is very hard. I dont know about u but i can start an conversation but it can be hard to keep it going when it is someone you dont really fit in with yknow. I strugle at work cause i am a lot weirder than everyone else lol, but honestly be you don't overthink interactions because yknow practice makes perfect. I find the best way to talk to people you are not close with is to talk about them people love talking about themselves normally lol and hopefully as u get more comfortable u can open up too x