I hate mental health

Having anxiety is evil i would be so so happy if i didn't have anxiety it actually makes my chest hurt like physically or like my throat i feel like i am choking and i dont think it will ever get better and it fucking sucks

Yknow what else fucking sucks ocd. it affects my life so much i dont think people even understand how much it affects my fucking life it is an absolute nightmare and the worst part is like i actually think id be so much a better person without it like posioning me cause id be so much more carefree but i cant and i never will be

And it pisses me off when people think i just like cleaning i dont like cleaning im fucking trapped in a cycle cause i am scared and i cant even get any more help for it on the nhs for ages so im just gonna be stuck like this until it gets worse enough they have to help me and i just don't wanna live like this

It will get better Izzy! It feels like nothing is happening now but think of how awful it used to be. Don't get me wrong it's still hard now but if it's lessened even a little bit since then I think that's something we should celebrate and be hopeful about, because it shows it CAN improve. 

You are doing amazing! And the best part is you don't let it stop you doing what you want. It's something I really super admire about you!! Love you lots Izzy, 

I hope one day u will look back on how you are now and be proud of your strength because I know I am <3