I GOT ANGRY I STARTED KICKING MY DRUMS AND THROWING THEM
ELECTRIC DRUMS
ALSO ELECTRIC DRUMS SUCK
AND ALSO THEY SUCK CUZ I LOST SOME PIECES IN THE FUCKING CITY WHEN WE COULDN'T PRACTICE INSIDE AND WE HAD TO FUCKING FIND A PLACE AND NOW THEY FUCKING SUCK AND THEY FALL SOMETIMES AND MY FUCKING SNARE IS ON A FUCKING BOX THAT DOESN'T WEIGHT MUCH SOUNDS LOUDLY AND FALLS DOWN ALL THE TIME FUVK FUCK FUCKC FUCK AND MY SONGHM FUCKGING I COULFFN FUCKCING FO IT FUCK EVEYTHIDNG!!!
IT FUCKING DIDN'T TURN RIGHT I'LL NEVER BE GOOD IF I PLAY THOS WAY AND IF MY MOM WQSTN IN THE OTHER ROOM I WOULD REALLY DESTROY MY DRUMS BUT NAH CUZ "I'M NOT IMPULSIVE", "I'M CHILL" WELL TAKE FUCKING THIS I'M NOT CHILL AT ALL I HATE EATING I DON'T WANNA EAT EVERYTHING FUCK RUCK FUCK FUCK I JUSY WANNA BE ALONE
I HATE MY FRIENDS I HATE EEVRYONE AND MY EX QND MMYSELF EVERYONE SUCKS SO BAD!!! YOU SUCK!!!!!! I SUCK!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!! FUCK YOU!!!
FUCK YPU FUCL FUOU CFUCYL YOU I'M A FUCKING WEIRDO AND LAME AND FUCKING FUCK I CAN'T DO ANYTHING BARRLY DUFVINFFE I BARLEDNG SRUVILVW SIRVIVE BWRELY SURVIVE FICK FUCK UFKC YOU
I WASTED TIME THESE DAYS I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I LIVE ANYMORE I DO NOTHING
WHY CAN'T I PLAY A DAMN SONG AND WHY CAN'T THEY LET ME PLAY WHY DP THEU WAAWLSWAYS MAKE ME MAKE MISTAKES WHY DO I HAVE TO GET SO ANGRY FUCK FUCK FUCK FUFK FUKCK FUCK AND QND MY MOM'S HOMOPHOBIC AND I'M FUCKING GAY LESBIAN WTF AND I JUST WANNA HAVE MT OWN ROOM AND I HATE MY SISTER CUZ SHE SUCKS!!!
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK HOYOU I'M GONNA GO INSANE I'M GONNA GO INSANE
I DON'T WANT SCHOOL TO START CUZ I SUCK!!!
I DON'T WANNA BE THERE I'M A COWARD I CAN'T DO ANYTHING
I DON'T KNOW WHY AM I ALIVE
I'LL GO INSANE
SHUT RHE UOFUCK UP!
AND I'M NOT FUCKING ANGRY!!
I don't even know if I should text them, for what for what??!??!!?! I can't fucking go outside with anyone I'm gonna fucking go alone but I get more anxious when I'm alone I'm a scared cat and I suck and I suck and I can't do anything and I hate everyone I hate cashiers, I hate doctors, I hate security guards, I hate teachers, I fuxukici g haye evryrone.
What rhe fuck should I vevenf do now, watch tv again??!!? Like I did in the last two days??
Ohhhh you're too scared to do something out of your comfort zone so you're staring at the tv all day which distracts you and makes you think you're cool right?
Also this is fucking bad tor your health you know it well cuz cuz you fucking get fucking ill if you do anything it just appears, one day you're well and then it randomly starts for a whole few months. And then you're randomly alright and then they leave you. Hhahahah I'm gonna get ill again I wasn't even ill I wad just I don't fucking know I fucking fucking can't rely on anyone for anything I should fucking listen to my heart anf fucik evrtyone
Instead of making more cool memories OUTSIDE before summer ends, LIKE GOING TO THE SKATEPARK LIKE YOU THOUGHT BECAUSE THERE ARE EVENTS THERE, YOU STAY INSIDE LIKE A FREAK WATCHING TV BECAUSE YOU FEEL SAFER AND YOU'RE INCAPABLE AND IF YOU GO THERE YOU MIGHT FUCKING END UP MEETING BY CHANCE WITH SOME PEOPLE YOU DON'T WANNA SEE
CUZ THEY HAVE FUN AND YOU DON'T AND THEY DON'T FUCKING CWRE ABOUT YOU ANF YOU'LL DIE EVENTUALLY SO WHAT'S THE DAMN POINT
I JUST DON'T WANNA GO TO FUCKING SCHOOL EEVRYONE SUCKS!!! WHY CAN'T I FUCKING BE CONFIDENT!!!
I'M A FREAK!!!!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!
I suck so much ):
Instead of doing something I'm just isolating but I feel like I never wanna see them again. At least if I would be able to do more things by myself. It worked once at least. But today it didn't.
i just suck and I should fucking die cuz I'm incapable of anything. fuck you I won't fucking fucking fuck
shut rhe fuck up I can't even open up when I did no one fucking cares and I get it but I'm fucking lost from 2 years now and I know it will never end and I just need something to make me feel like I felt two months ago.
I don't even know if it even worked. Cuz I always sucked.
I can't even do anything cuz they see I hate how they don't care when they're crossing fucking fuck fuxking the line
I suck as a drummer and as a human so leave me alone.
Sometimes I miss my dad and idk why I don't miss who's him now, I miss how we were when I was a kid.
Also I think my way of fashion and my art sucks. My art will never be great I'll fucking die
Also I know I'll end up on the street in a few years
And everyone will be fine
And I'll scream from pain.
And the world sucks cuz there's so much pain in it beacuse of some idiots who decide to rule it and some idiots who decided to follow wow
I suck everyoje hates me
I want my stuff back.
