its so joeover............ (trans issues)

im genuinely going to lose my mind i hate this so much :( im not allowed to cut my hair, unable to get testosterone, unable to do ANYTHING, my mom STILL buying me fem clothes and deadnaming me while knowing DAMN WELL im a trans guy. a guy. literally most of the people around me misgender and deadname me and i honestly would off myself because of this, it really annoys me so much...... like, when i talk to my mom about me wanting to cut my hair she either ignores me or says "but i like your hair that length", she ignored me asking to get t and whatnot, so, what even is there that i can do? nothing.

I say you tell her to fuck off and cut your hair yourself.

what the other person said+buy some masculine clothes yourself if you can

literally i promise just do whatever the fuck you want man. come out to the people around you. all of them. make a ridiculous amount of space for yourself and feel terrible doing it. if they fuck up your name and pronouns after you've already told them, call them out on it. cut your own hair yourself, it's not like your mom can glue hair back on. have a long conversation with her. get angry. 

tldr; do whatever you fucking want cause it's your life. i'm here 4u

I was in the same boat as you a couple years ago, I had like an hour long argument with my mom once until she let me schedule my own haircut (which I only got away with cutting my hair short ONCE), and I just had to work with what I had clothing wise since she even saw normal tshirts as too masculine for some reason??

Theres really nothing she can actually DO once ur hair is already short if you wanna take the route of cutting it yourself, same with going and getting ur own clothes, theres nothing she can realistically do about it and by the sounds of it she doesnt sound hostile, moreso trying to sweep everything under a rug so she can ignore it.

Its all gonna take effort, you gotta be willing to be defiant wherever you can and keep pushing against it, I had to do so my entire life. But ur gonna make it bro, hell you seem more motivated to go thru with it than I ever was. Every step of the way will have obstacles and ppl trying to go against you but you'll make it.

heyy when i was 13-15 i was in this spot too. i literally just started doing what i wanted to. i cut off my hair one night when my mom was out, and i stopped responding unless people used my chosen name and pronouns. its hard to do but in my experience it can work out. ofc idk your situation and it might not be the same for u, but its an option!!