Hi! My name is Mel and im thinking of going back to therapy after 1 year and 7 months 
Im not feeling so good recently, I feel kinda empty and sad and I sincerely dont want to go to therapy again..
My therapist was such a sweet person, but after a time she stopped understanding me, and that was my life's safe space at the moment; so I gave up on Therapy. Nowadays, I dont like the idea of being in a room in silence and talking abt my life to a """stranger""", I dont feel comfort anymore in clinics (just a personal choice)
Doing online therapy is WORSE than presencial, bc I would be so nervous and scared just to make a simple phrase (and I hate calls, even with some friends :/ )
At the same time im writing this, I feel I should delete it. I hate being made fun of just bc im sad or vunerable, its like im faking my feelings just to "attract atention" but thats not true, and even if I did that, I believe everyone should be welcomed and listened, even for atention! Ppl deserve respect
Even though I have good friends and nice parents (even if my relationship with them is not the best, but not the worst), I still feel bad and idk why, maybe is like that temporary pain that our body feels it sometimes
I like to talk to ppl about my feelings, but I dont feel safe enough bc of fear of being annoying or smth, is just sad and idk what to say abt it
I dont feel good abt opening up to my parents, my friends, therapists, so Idk what to do sincerelyyy 
Maybe I should get back to therapy.. Any suggestions?
