Cosmo

[b][size=20]xXCosmoXx[/size][/b] [i]i don’t explain myself anymore. i just exist.[/i] [hr] [b]status:[/b] [color=red][i]probably listening to the same song again and ignoring everything else[/i][/color] [hr] [b]about me:[/b] i’m not good at first impressions. or second ones. or anything that involves pretending i’m simple. i remember things people said in passing, then forget things they said when they actually meant it. i notice tone changes before words finish forming. i overthink silence more than conversation. sometimes i disappear for a while. not for drama. just because everything gets too loud even when it’s quiet. i come back like nothing happened, because explaining it never makes it easier. [hr] [b]mental archive:[/b] • replaying conversations at 3am • reading between lines that weren’t meant to be read • acting fine when nothing is fine • getting attached to lyrics instead of people sometimes • laughing at things that aren’t jokes [hr] [b]music rotation:[/b] • Green Day • Panic! at the Disco • Blink-182 • Linkin Park • My Chemical Romance (when it gets worse) • random songs I find at 2am and never save properly [i]"i tried so hard and got so far..."[/i] [i]"well, i guess this is growing up..."[/i] [i]"i’m not okay (i promise)"[/i] [hr] [b]personality.exe[/b] • humor: quiet, delayed, sometimes accidental • energy: unpredictable (0% or 200%, no in-between) • communication: selective • trust issues: system default • emotional processing: still loading… subroutines: - overthinking.active - emotional firewall: unstable - social battery: draining before usage [hr] [b]things i won’t say out loud:[/b] i care more than i show. i notice more than i respond. i leave before i get left. sometimes i act like i don’t care because caring too openly feels like losing control. [hr] [b]notes:[/b] if you understand me immediately, you probably don’t. if you still stick around anyway, that’s on you. i’m not mysterious on purpose. i’m just not finished being something yet. [hr] [b]final line:[/b] [i]don’t try to figure me out too fast. even i’m still loading.[/i]