𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 ᯓ★

i'm steven

and this is my house

and i'm fcking sick of that fan 

anyways!! hello 
welcome to my profile!! hope you like it !! 

thing about me::  
i have an autism

i'm not li ke heavily autistic though, like low level or wtv it's also really hard to pick up social cues for me sometimes. sorggy. :(

my kins

my personality does change sometimes,, but i usually stick to being as kind and nice as possible 

i'm a HUGE fan of very etheral music!! like music that might play in your head when you're going crazy and seeing rainbows everywhere and feel like you're being blown away or sum.. just like.. awruaaaa..

ok televisiom whatever that most of the stuff i'm in si television anyway right. PRETEND TELEVISION SAYS FANDOMS OR WTV

list of stuff i'm in: (AND MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS)

steven universe: steven universe!!, pearl, garnet, amethyst, peridot, hehe

invader zim: zim and dib!!!

adventure time: finn and jake, princess bubblegum, marcline !

haunted hotel: abaddon and nathan 

spooky month: skid and pump

hilda: hilda, david, frida

kipo: aotw: kipo

rainworld: uhh rivulet 

bendy and the ink machine: bendy :)) luh baby bendy esp

ed edd n eddy, edd, eddy, ed

deltarune and undertale: kris, susie, ralsei, lancer (i haven't seen chapter 5 because i'm waiting for smokee to release her gameplay because i'm too broke to afford deltarune.. sigh..) frisk, flowey, toriel, asgore, papyrus 

wings of fire: cricket, blue, starflight, turtle, peril!!

warrior cats: jayfeather

httyd: toothless, hiccup

stranger things,, dustin, lucas, will, mike, el

gravity falls: dipper, bill cipher, mabel, grunkle stan

mlp: rainbow dash, twilight sparkle

beastars, legoshi, haru

troll hunters: jim.. uhh.. just jim. yup.

dead end: paranormal park, barney (he's the reason i found out what transgender is, love barney), courtney

centaurworld, horse, the nowhere king

glitch techs, hector, miko (i was insanely obsessed with this show. i loved hector so much that i named my persona after him, and it used to be the name i went by, also i named my cat miko after her hehe)
harry potter: harry, ron, hermione, hagrid, dumbledore, sirius, lupin, mr and mrs weasley, luna, neville, 

fnaf: all of the main gangs fnaf 1-4 

night in the woods: MAEBEA!! i love mae and bea ehe

sally face: sally, larry , ashley 

don't starve: wilson, webber, wurt
amphibia,, sprig, anne, marcy

what i'm currently reading:

harry potter and the goblet of fire (4th reread)

a human condition (2nd reread)

 but i'm mainly a huge fan of harry potter, warrior cats, and wings of fire!! i also really enjoy reading the wild robot series, and i have alotta bird books!! heh.. i REALLY love birds.. bird.. birdie..  

i will do anything to adopt a green-cheeked conure.

i'm also a very huge fan of fanfics!! particularly ones about invader zim, steven universe, gravity falls, httyd or ed edd n eddy!

my favorite fanfics ever:

saving zim !! :

a well-written masterpiece, characters are perfectly written, personalities are wonderfully fitting, there's zim and dib friendship (ZADF) and they're also aged up!- there's 16 chapters, it's uncomplete, but there's a LOT to read and unpack. also, there's a bunch of words included that are so niche that you have to look up what they mean,, major angst and major comfort and that perfect bit of realism!! one of the best fanfics i've ever read!!

saving zim: epilogue !! :

 a separate fic continuing the story! it was written before saving zim, but takes place later in the timeline!! it's very sweet, there's still so much angst and love and comfort, and it's unfortunately still uncomplete and hasn't been updated in a year or two.. great for rereading though! :3

[fanart will be added here.. eventually..]

forced perspective !! :

 a VERY adorable and interesting sickfic, characters are perfectly written, especially their personalities and dialogue, ZADE to ZADF, they become adorable buds, and there's soo much fluff and some angst!! there's also illustrations, 1-2 per chapter!! however, the ending does feel slightly rushed as it does feel like there's more to unpack or more friendship to build, but it does end happily! a very good fic, very good to reread!!

 WARNING!! FREAKY FIC!! ❗❗

A Good Edd Is Hard To Find !! : 

A Good Edd Is Hard To Break !! : 

WARNING: this fic is DARKSHIP!!❗❗

a very niche and interesting part of the edd edd n eddy fandom!!, the characters in this fic are perfectly captured and amazingly well-written!! the parents do get involved in this fic for once, and i love how real they feel, like all the characters, even the ocs feel like canon- and i absolutely LOVE. all the relationships, (broedd and eddxeddy), they are so perfectly done and the plot doesn't feel rushed, it's quite the opposite actually and every character gets a little bit of action!!  unfortunately, this fic is NOT for the weak, since bro (terry, his name in this fic) does REALLY horrible things to a kidnapped edd, this fic is DEFINITELY to be avoided if you don't like that stuff. it has VERY freaky elements. if you want to read this.. BEWARE.

a good edd is hard to break is the sequel!! it has the same things as before, except edd is in recovery, but is having mental issues, like hallucinations, nightmares, extreme mood swings and he has a REALLY bad therapist.. and his friends don't seem to care at all, they're all too distracted hanging out with their OTHER friends.. however, it doesn't stop there.. the sole reason for all of edd's suffering wouldn't stop at ruining his life once.. he came back for SECONDS. it's all up to edd, will he choose terry, or his so-called friends?

dun dun dunnn..
also, i've seen that these specific kind of broxedd fanfics are VERY niche and there only seems to be two creators making them, since y'know.. it's darkship.. and usually that stuff is like.. already really rare-
BUT these people are really cool so thank you to!!DuoXKouga and Battygirl, are the cro-creators to these fics!

Change My Mind !!:
 an AMAZING steven universe fanfic, it's VERY long and juicy and explores every single emotion steven has and it just makes you go "WHAT??? HUH???" like every paragraph!! i had to stop and STARE at my screen in awe at what was happening in this fic. but this fic includes EXTREME angst, and a bit of self-harm, oh and i actually haven't finished it yet though, there's just more and more to unpack! and it has absolutely CRAZY line drops like.. my favorite quote in this chapter is: 

"Diamond, monster. I didn't ask to be either, but I still ended up as both" that is TUFF. HOLY. ok sorry, moving on..

Nightfall !! :

a BEAUTIFUL httyd fic. hiccup is raised by dragons is able to speak their language, but never realizes he's human, and lives alongside them!! hiccup and toothless are also platonic soulmates- two who are one, as descripted in the fic!! HONESTLY, story-telling and plot is AMAZING. it seems like almost every character is involved, and the plot is juicy, and astrid takes hiccup's place in the movie as the one who tries to unite dragons and vikings! the writer of this story however, is SUCH an amazing and intelligent writer that i struggle to comprehend some of the story, especially the deep, complex bond between hiccup and toothless!! i'm currently on chapter 19/21, so something crazy probably will happen soon, so i'll include that once i finish it.. 

Prisoner of Nightmares !! :
a very spooky, angsty fanfic with tons of fluff to go with it!! 
it's mainly centered around zim, dib, gir and all the crazy monsters they have to fight, there's.. not that many characters actually- the personalities for zim and dib are a bit different from canon, with dib being confused, clumsy and constantly scared, but has an excuse which is his mental issues!! zim is more accurate, but there's a slight mischaracterization, with zim, being an alien, he has alien animal-like instincts, and shark teeth- which.. isn't really accurate, but that's fine!! the fic starts off zadr (zim and dib relationship) with no development or context, just straight into the fluffy stuff, it's like they were never enemies, but! the main plot of it is dib getting rescued from the psych ward but continues to be tortured in this nightmare world, which is only in his head, and zim comes to the rescue!! sorta.. hopefully. it unfortunately ends VERY early on a bit of cliff-hanger, and it hasn't been updated in like.. over decade soo.. i think it's safe to assume there's proobably never going to be an ending unfortunately.. mmrhhsrhpsghs sigh.. 

rant and freaky mention warning❗❗
A Human Condition !! :
GAHH this fanfiction is so peak!! throughout the early to mid chapters i was JUMPING for joy in how good this fic is!! there's SO much perfect angst and everybody gets to have a slice of said angst and all the feelings are being explored and they all get their own moments, AND the amount of character study is BEAUTIFUL. it's one of the BEST fanfics of all time!!
 
is what i WOULD say until it took a SHARP turn DOWNHILL.
 *dramatic sound.*
there's eventual smut.
there's billford.

my two least favorite things. sorta.
 i can let smut go sometimes, but NOT with a ship i hate. 

and you know what that means..

bill and ford unfortunately get all smoochy woochy late in the fic and then start shoving their PICKLES in each other because for SOME!! reason they just HADDD to write where ford kept getting a tingle in his little peter every time he looks at bill, when he LITERALLY!!! spend 80%. YES. 80%!!! of the fic HATING bill and wanting him DEAD. AND NOW THIS??? THEY'RE GETTING FREAKY?? ARE YOU KIDDING ME????
*inhale*
yup, no. i couldn't read any further. this fic was amazing, i was thinking it could even be in my top favorites, but I TAKE THAT BACK. SMUT RUINED IT. and it's not even FINISHED by the way. i think the author is taking a bit of a LONG break after writing allat.. since APPARENTLY that's what it was leading up to? and i GUESS they didn't feel like like writing anymore.. since Y'KNOW. the slow-burn is OVER now. and the slow-burn KINDA sucked if i'm being honest!! it was REALLY slow at first, and then, 50 chapters of hating eachother, and then all in the span of one.. BOOM they're freaky. ALL of that angst and comfort and realism just to get freaky for no reason to appeal to some GOONY LOONEY LOSERS??? it's great for billford and fiddlestan ships i GUESS??!! OH!!? I FORGOT!!! STANLEY AND FIDDLEFORD GET FREAKY TOO!! GAY OLD MEN YAOI YAY!! I LOVE SPENDING HOURS IN MY DARK BEDROOM READING ABOUT HOMOSEXUAL CRYPTID SUCKLING RAISENS GETTING PICKLE TICKLES JUST BECAUSE SOME LITTLE TIMMY OUT THERE WANTS SOMETHING TO EXCITE HIMSELF WITH THIS RUINED THE FIC AND YOU K-
*INHALE*

*exhale*

when bill gets drunk, this is when he and ford start to become more and more comfortable around each other and it all starts going downhill.
but hm.. well, i really don't mind if are shipped, because.. they're a pretty good match, but the smut just.. make me sick. i don't like it. it's not fitting.
this is a real rant i had when i was talking to myself after seeing chapter 51 of a human condition.. i have voice-acted this entire rant MULTIPLE times because it was funny after i cooled off and pretend i'm ranting it on a youtube video like randomalistic or sum.. but

i'm reading about 5 fanfics that i haven't finished, but once i'll do i'll write my reviews for them aswell!

spooky month and haunted hotel.. heh..

uhm.. most of them are a bit too short or just.. not good enough.. to write about, so until then.. i'll keep searching!! >:D